Chaos !

I do not know what to say ! I am confused ,bit confused ,actually confused ! I wanted something else but got something unwanted ! It's fine though ,nothing much to sulk about but I am not satisfied ! I am in a constant state of penury ! I am clueless as what to say , what to do and how to react and how not to react ! But I am still the same even after days and months of self abnegation ! Though I have learned a lot but I still need some ''guardian'' angel to guide me through the unknown horizon where I can meet the ''eternal'' sunlight ! I am in an open dungeon but it seems to be closed ,I am again clueless !
I do not want to end from where I started it but I think I can not get out it soon ! It will take some time to adjust myself with new bricks ,new air ,new scent .Ah !

I am Optimistic !

Um...!!