Photography ?

What is Photography ? What does a "photo" signify ? Does it have a theme or a message or a whole story behind it ? These are some very easy and complicated questions. For example, what is poetry ? Google it and one can find some infinite links on it. All the reasons are justified, for those, who have experienced the "true" emotions of poetry. It applies to photography as well. It's a form of "art" and I am associated with it. 

Searching for some genuine reasons for my inclination towards it. The photo is half dark and half bright and it's just the beginning ...............




P.S - Nothing interesting in the post.

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Bore, boring, bored.

Semester 1 exams are over. I'm kinda feeling light-headed. They were bad, extremely bad.
So. I have got nothing much to do these days, as holidays have just started and I am still unprepared as what to do during this break. I planned certain plans, while I was preparing for my exams. A good time pass huh !         First, was to got hold of the Semester 2 course and started reading it. Result - still in progress. Second, was to work on my photography skills, and to focus on NGO. Result - affirmative. Last and the most important, was to not let myself got bored and had to indulge in some activity to keep myself busy. Result - negative. Also, to travel somewhere in the mountains. Result - ah! useless thought.
But the question is, how and when and why someone get bored? I do not remember exactly (my bad memory), but I read or heard from someone, somewhere that their is no such word "Bore" (bored or boring), at least not in the dictionary (not literally) of those people who have some purposes in their life. Even if they do not have a purpose, they are sure of not letting themselves "bored", not even for a single moment. People who whines all the time, "they are bored" or "their life is boring", are either aimless or confused in what to make of their life. I'm not sure whether to agree with it or not. But, somehow, I would agree with the logic. I've come across people who are active; who are not delusional; who are practical; who are always doing something, even  if it makes sense or not. It's an eye opener when you look at them and then see yourself in the mirror, something wrong with you(if you're bored!), you're absolutely right!
It's a sad fact that I'm suffering from this "bore-boring-bored" syndrome (if I may call it). Though, I am fighting with it and the results are affirmative. I'm trying to be as active as possible, I know it's a hard task(for me!), still I will try my best to face it. It sounds like a challenge for me !
I think I am done with this post. I've made enough points to justify my "boredo(o)m".
As I said, I'm working on it.

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A Dream Shattered!

Yes,it was a dream.But it was shattered,brutally!Nobody expected it, I mean people who were there;who were eagerly waiting for their dream to came true that night, after 3 decades.It was a life time opportunity.Sadly ,for us and so not for them(bastards).I could see the emotions,wrath and sadness in the eyes of so many people( I was one of them).They were shocked,clueless and dumbstruck.They cried;they abused;they went violent,but  the saddest part of the event was that they were Sad(from inside).Few of them would not even leave the place because they were still waiting for a glimpse of their Gods.But they never turned up.Heard that they had post-event party in one of the 5 stars hotels.An event that never happened.I felt *sad* for people who came all the way from North-East,and after traveling so long ,they were left with no option but to returned back home empty handed.

I wished I could judge the event or criticized what *Metal heads*  did that night.But I can not and I won't.Because ,somewhat I am still sad,rather frustrated,irritated ; as if I knew it that it was bound to happen and it had happened.I was desperately waiting for the day.I wanted to see them Live.Nothing of that sort happened.I thank God that I was not the only unlucky fan.May be I am sounding like a Sadist selfish ass.But,that's how I can console myself now.Shame! Nobody is going to forget this day or date - 28.10.2011.At least not I,for ever.One of the saddest days in my life.I am bound to remember  it,even how hard I can try to erase it from my memory.I waited for them for so long.They were so close and yet so far.
Time to close this chapter now,at least from here.

And I will remember,
"The Day That Never *Came*."

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Vella !

If at all I am in the mood of writing a new post on my "mysterious" blog.I sometimes wonder why did I choose this title "Something Mysterious".I have no clue! I started this blog a year back or so and I could not remember my state of mind at that time.Of course ,my memory is bad.But there has to be some reason behind it! Um..I will think about it later.
So,it was a boring Sun-day.I should have spent it reading Marvell or Sidney or some other texts but I did not dare to touch any of the texts.My bad.Life is so not going well.Some hindrances.It's dull and boring.So many texts to read but what I am doing ,is waiting for the "spark" .I hope I will get some it soon( very soon) or Sem 1 exams are not far.
Today, I am avoiding complexity in my post.May be because I do not have anything interesting to share.It's a sheer time-pass or nothing else.Though I have changed my profile picture and edited personal information.It's  like a "blogger's block" .Nothing much to talk about.But still continuing it without a possible end.
Time to wrap up this monotonous post.I will talk about "blogger's block" in detail some other day.It's a useless post still I found something intriguing in it.Woah!

Stay Optimistic.

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One Interesting Day.

After a torturous and problematic day.Today was a relief ,though an eye opener.Yes,I am still stuck in my "nut-shell".But at least , I tried and I am happy for that.I felt bored ,not just because I am a boring person (which I am not ,ah) but I did try to transgress (in a positive way) my self-made (nut-shell) boundaries.I felt bad.I liked the lecture though ! Philosophy is always intriguing even how hard and useless it can be ,still it carries some sense of understanding; even a simple process, in an almost different and rather complex way.
Ok.I should not start philosophy again!But the fact is,overdose of anything is harmful.

I was walking down the lane,head pointing downwards.Might be some gravitational effect !Too many thoughts and to reconcile them together was a tough task.I thought it would be better if I would remain restricted in some ways ,not all.I waited for sometime but found myself a-lone ,that 360 degree shot ,with so many people around;so many voices;sounds;gazes,but I remained steady with a foolish optimism I sometimes put over ,just like a false regalia.When it is put off ,it shows you the harsh reality ,as opposed to your or my delusional world.I came back home(no other option).It was a usual routine ,but my thought process could not stop even when I was sleeping.I got up and found some good news : The ticket was finally arrived.Everything is pre decided.Although it's upto you to believe it or not.I think I do !

I think I was lost when I was online.I could not reply to posts , chat logs ,fights etc.The "reason" was the only reason.I think it's the right time to take some refuge in my well known "nutshell" , I hope it works as it does always.I watched Zindagi Milegi Na Dobara.I think I will end this blog with one of the Shayaris recited by Farhan Akhtar(did not like his voice).RIP Jagjit Sir.I learned a lot from his ghazals and from this Man.Will talk about him in other blog.Here it is,

"Jab jab dard ka baadal chhaya
Jab gum ka saya lehraya
Jab aansoo palkon tak aya
Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya Humne dil ko yeh samjhaya
…Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai
Duniya mein yunhi hota hai
Yeh jo gehre sannate hain
Waqt ne sabko hi baante hain
Thoda gum hai sabka qissa
Thodi dhoop hai sabka hissa
Aankh teri bekaar hi nam hai
Har pal ek naya mausam hai
Kyun tu aise pal khota hai
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai"

It suffices my whole blog.Optimism! 

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The Change I Need.

Listening to Pantera at the moment.And writing a post at 2.14 am, after having a heavy dose of Plato's philosophy (quite intriguing)is actually weird.But I could not stop myself.I have been going through a phase of self-realization (if only it's a phase!).I do not want to make this topic obscure ,for no simple reason but to follow Rim-li way; talking about realization of my self ! So.Yes.I need to change some of my habits like To share my opinions ,to let others know my thought process though not completely ,but upto some extent.
I need to open up ;start talking in a friendly way ,to share my personal views on a certain matter.Um....Not that easy a task for an introvert like Me.But I shall try.Yes,I shall.I can do it.Even I can Stay foolish,Stay hungry.The guy was a good Orator.An intelligent man.I think it's the article's effect.Whatever ,my major concern is to fight with my inner self.I think ,I too have some potential,if not much as others.I am unsure about it.
So,from now onwards I will put forth my opinions,my personal point of views.I will start it from the coming Monday.Yes.I've finalized it.I will do it.One more thing: I will try to inculcate some confidence in Me(later process).
Oh Lord! I am thinking way too much these days.And why the hell is Dog crying outside and Aaru is irritated as usual.Distraction huh ? Sigh!

It's time to finish it off ,with some optimistic conclusion.I hope I will live upto My expectations !
Philosophy can works wonder ! I did not know I would end up writing a whole blog on it.Ah!
R.I.P Steve Jobs.

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Obscurity!

Ok.I am bit twisted today ,not literally! It's a problematic situation;not easy to understand or sort to say ,it's an obscure situation.
The term "Obscurity" means "It's the quality of being difficult to understand.An obscurity is something that is difficult to understand."
The definition seems to be very precise and easily understandable ,but it's quite a problematic term  which has become a major problem of my life these days.It was a casual term for me to use in my day-to-day life.But it seems it has become an essential part of my life after I joined post grad.It's quite funny and embarrassing when some one asks you the definition of "Sports" and you ,confidently, gives a simple definition of the term without even a clue of it's other or rather problematic definition  which is actually obscure.Dumbfounded !
It's true not to mention that nothing is simple as it seems but what's the use of making every thing problematic ? A question which is bothering me a lot these days .
One can not predict a "simple" conclusion to something which has many hidden conclusions.So ,the principle says ,"one should leave the ending open to infinite conclusions" , perfect ! 
But getting too much into it ,leads you nowhere but left you with no one "genuine" conclusion which is needed when you are trapped in an extremely complicated situation.Would you prefer to look out for obscurity in it or rather try hard to get yourself out of it? I think a smart person would choose the latter ,and an intellectual person the former.That's how it is.That's just my personal observation.I am facing a hell lot of obscurity every now and then.May be I am learning something different ,an important lesson of my life : to look at my obscure or simple life through the lenses of Obscurity.
It's an intriguing topic ,quite an engaging one.Will talk more about it some other day after more of such experiences.
It's always good to not reveal the names and locations of the characters associated with your experiences.No more twisted as I was in the beginning.Oh! I am listening to a Sufi track.
God Bless.

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Again Clueless !

Thankfully! It happened again but it seems the impact was bit normal this time as it has become an everyday's affair.Such a sham! I think I too should get used to it or may be keep on getting frustrated ; relentless bothering over a ''common'' matter.Oh ! I am just going through a phase ,it will get over soon ! See the optimism level . But how can not it bothers some one to ''bother'' over such a heinous incident and it irks you more when you hear statements like , " we should unite" , "we should not lose our patience" ,"we will go into the core of the matter" .End result : It happens again ,this time in some other city , " I am all fine .God gives the strength to the victims family."

It's blasphemous but who cares neither I nor They .And the best (which is the worst) part is that Life goes on because I am safe. The one of the main reasons is the Great Indian democracy.It would be unfair on my part if I would unabashedly condemn our "trustworthy" politicians.

Never mind.It happened and I am sure (extremely cynic) it will happen again ,somewhere ,sometime ,some people will die ,some will mourn ,some will rejoice and some of them will feel lucky (like i am not-so-feeling now,but i am).It will remain just the same because "I" am a Cynic.

I am lost some where,in a state of limbo and I do not know how to get out of it.

But I am still Optimistic (not at all sure).

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Nothing Interesting !

Yeah ! It was as usual ,nothing interesting ! The reason was not even new as well .I did not do much ,except pretending to be a busy-bee.Ha ha.That was a reasonable reason to satisfy others.So , I am feeling grumpy ,lazy and bit disturbed (as usual) .It has started getting bit difficult for me to fight with my schedule .And the major problem is that I did not expect this unexpected burden !But I will get used to it (it's nice to pretend all the time:P).
Ok.I am not reading and bothering about current affairs these days(the reason is mentioned above).I think it's quite an intriguing task to concentrate on certain things at a time.Sometimes it's annoying and sometimes it's challenging ! IA ,presentation,semester exams,NGO,political issues,personal stuffs,books,sleeping issues,future planning etc.Yes ,I am fighting a war with myself and my brain is the Only enemy.But it seems ,as of now ,neither of us is winning ! Quite a dubious situation for Me and for my brain ! We both have to sort this out as soon as possible or God knows the unwanted consequences .Though I am looking for a "brahmastra" to use against my enemy and end this "useless" war.
Ok.I think I should end this post here itself.Enough of this not-so-interesting post !
Let's just end it here.And I hope this blogging will continue.
Sheer wastage !

Chaos !

I do not know what to say ! I am confused ,bit confused ,actually confused ! I wanted something else but got something unwanted ! It's fine though ,nothing much to sulk about but I am not satisfied ! I am in a constant state of penury ! I am clueless as what to say , what to do and how to react and how not to react ! But I am still the same even after days and months of self abnegation ! Though I have learned a lot but I still need some ''guardian'' angel to guide me through the unknown horizon where I can meet the ''eternal'' sunlight ! I am in an open dungeon but it seems to be closed ,I am again clueless !
I do not want to end from where I started it but I think I can not get out it soon ! It will take some time to adjust myself with new bricks ,new air ,new scent .Ah !

I am Optimistic !

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For heaven's sake, i am ready for blogging once again , after some zillion of years !
Life is bit tricky these days.
Ah! I am not yet ready for it.
I will be back soon after everything will be solved.
Hope it will end soon!
An optimistic goodbye !
Tc.

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